13 Jan 2019


Hi there!

I can’t believe it’s been six months but it has. Doesn’t time fly?

What have I been up to?

Not much really after the whirlwind that was the twelve months prior to my last post. I did stitch though and also a little knitting which included some finishes :) I have been posting on Instagram as it’s easier although I hate not being able to add comments to individual photos on multiple post and also it’s hard to waffle and I do look to waffle.

I have also just returned to work after maternity leave, which was ten months that whizzed by and I feel like I got nothing done but I did have a great companion.

What now?

The blog needs a makeover as the header is from 2017! I also want to post about the 19 projects I will be working on in 2019. I have some targets and by blogging about them I feel accountable. I literally have to trick myself into getting things done.

But they are all things I want to do.

I have so many blogs to catch up with too and I am looking forward to that, I can’t wait to find out what everyone has been up to.

So watch this space for new posts soon xx

26 Jun 2018

Quick Update


Ok so I have started stitching again - only just picked up the needle this past week - working on a very very old WIP Spaniola.

Hope to catch up with your blogs soon and get into the swing of it again, I hope you have all been well.

I gave birth at the end of march, a little boy, who we have named Beau Elliott.

Here he is...

See you soon!

26 Oct 2017

Life really does take over sometimes...

How long has it been? Too long!

Well…what has lead to the delay…at first it was because I went on holiday, a lovely two week cruise to Greece, Italy, Croatia & Montenegro…and when I got back I delayed posting about it because just two weeks later I was heading to my first cross stitching retreat so thought I would blog about both on my return…and then I lost my stitchy bug for a couple of weeks and when it came back I was stitching – I have even managed a small finish and done some stitching on bigger projects….and then…I was feeling under the weather, I was quite fatigued – and any of you who have followed this blog for a while will know that I have Rheumatoid Arthritis (RA) and you can suffer with fatigue quite a lot. Since I have been on my meds it has lessened but I have been the worst patient this year and put the fatigue down to that and told myself to start back on taking my medication regularly – ideally before my next hospital appointment where I could be a great example of a good patient. However, I was having nausea too and the thought of swapping the RA side effects for the hideous medication side effects meant I thought I would tough it out because…I also had some bloating (not just period bloating) but the kind that I had when I had an ovarian cyst and so I was wondering if I had another one…then I had sore boobs and cramping for about three weeks with no period and that’s when I knew I must be starting the menopause! My mother started in her late 30s so it is not so unusual.

So before I just started back on my meds (I hadn’t taken them for a good 6 months), I thought I should make sure that it wasn’t menopause symptoms. How do you do that? You eliminate all other causes of the symptoms. So fatigue, nausea, bloating, cramping, sore boobs….hmmmm….any ideas?
Well….I do know that these symptoms can all be a sign of pregnancy too…however, I am overweight, over 40, I have been told in the past that I would not conceive without medical intervention, I have only one ovary remaining since the cyst and that ovary is polysystic…so that is definitely not an option…but…the brain works in mysterious ways and once I get the idea into my mind I have to take the test, it used to happen when I was younger, the only way to get the idea out of my head was to take the test and it would be negative every time and I’d then get on with eliminating more possibilities.

Well…I walked to a nearby shop during my break at lunchtime and they sell tests, so I grabbed one and went back to work…peed on the stick…waited for it to be negative and then…I was sat open mouthed, pulse racing, sweat across my brow as the test came back positive! Luckily it was a two pack so I could take the second one and prove it was a false positive….the second test was also positive! I immediately texted my sister saying OMG! What does this mean? (she has three kids) and I also texted my boyfriend (another long story), after returning to my desk I began googling causes of a false positive on a pregnancy test….menopause (highly likely), Ovarian tumour (definite possibility), immune system disease (RA!) and so yes, that provided me with some relief to know that all of those options could be the cause. I had spent the last 20 years coming to terms with not having children so that was a very scary thought indeed.

My nest step was to take some more tests and by Friday morning (4 tests down – all positive), I ran the doctor – but the way it works where I live is to get a dr’s appointment you need to phone at a certain time of day, then get interrogated by the self-important receptionist, who then decides if you can have a call back from the locum doctor, you then answer the locum doctors questions and they decide whether or not to give you an appointment. Well I only managed to get to stage one where I speak to a receptionist who told me if 4 tests were positive then I probably am pregnant and need to see the midwife and fill in a form. Hmmm. I was not happy with this, but decided to fill in the form and my sister said I could book an early scan privately – not they aren’t that cheap but I thought it was a good idea as I could queue jump, in terms of then knowing it was menopausal or a tumour and so I booked one (had to wait three days) and filled in the midwife form as I knew I could cancel.
Fast forward to three days later and I am waiting for the early scan…I have had both external and internal scans as I had them when I had previous laparoscopy's etc. so I had managed to drink some water but then had to go. I got in there and told her my story and she said…none of those reasons mean you can’t be pregnant. Hmmmm. So I laid back and she checked from the outside – she said she couldn’t really see much but there was a sac there…wait what???!  So then she says she will have to do an internal one to get a better look, and that there is a sac there but quite often this can be from a chemical miscarriage etc. so I was OK and thought it has to be that then. So I am laying there staring off into the distance when she says…that there was a sac, fetal pole and something else…but it was all as it should be for someone approx. 7 weeks pregnant!

So….that happened! Much to my shock and that of my partner who was also not planning on children and well, we had only been together ten months at that point.

It has been quite an odd experience and I am currently 17 weeks and 5 days. I am not sure what is going on as I haven’t had an appointment since seeing the midwife just after 14 weeks…I have an appointment next week to hear the heartbeat (although I have seen it previously) and then two weeks after that is the anomaly scan and half way point. It is strange and I am still finding it all a little surreal and hard to believe. I hope everything is ok in there, but am not sure how I am supposed to know exactly. I have yet to start feeling anything (around 18-22 weeks on average for FTMS) and I am not really showing (due to being bigger to start off with) and I haven’t gained any weight. So basically it is a waiting game to see….I have had some tests and had the Nuchal Translucency test – and they have all been fine so far. So its just a matter of waiting for kicks, popping out and the 20 week scan.

So….that has been quite a roller coaster ride as me and my partner came to terms with the situation and what we were going to do – we had already decided we would move in with each other in a couple of years and use that time to save up to buy some where and for the interim, continue living with parents and having weekends away…but we have had to speed up that timeline and are in the process of buying a house. Another huge change! It will mean I will be living in a market town, and everything will be new to me so that’s going to be a learning curve with a new house, a new baby and a new town but that’s life!

And so at the risk of boring you even more…I shall end here and post later this evening with photos from my holiday, the stitch weekend, my finish and my wips….I definitely should have started this post with are you sitting comfortably…

16 May 2017

Top 5 Tuesdays: Top 5 Questions

Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?

I probably should have said dead or alive but lets stick with alive…I guess family and good friends don’t have to be included as it’s a given really that we consider them important in our lives…so who would I pick…to eat with…its very English to eat and chat whilst do so, pausing as you go…and who would I want to do this with…hmmm…that’s a tough one….as much as I am not a fan per se or have ever read her books but I would have a lot of questions for JK Rowling and so that’s who I would pick. I would ask her about writing, about success, about having her work made into movies and also about coping with all of that.

When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?

I sang in the car the other day, just under my breath to myself as it was a sunny day, my boyfriend heard me and then we sang it together – the song was ‘The sun has got his hat on’ and I used to sing this whilst skipping to first school every single day! Lol I used to love school so I guess I link it to being happy. Not such a bad thing.

If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you choose?

I would choose the body of a 30 year old but the mind of someone aging, I learnt so much in my thirties that I wouldn’t want to lose that.

If you could wake up tomorrow having gained one quality or ability, what would it be?

I have always want to have one skill, one talent, one thing that I excel at and that is to be able to sing well.

If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else what would you want to know?

Ooh! So tough a question…I mean…I am a worrier so I would like to know if the future is sunny but if I knew the future would I enjoy the present? I try to be honest, ah hell, I am honest, I just can’t lie and I think I do know the truth about myself even if I try to ignore my annoying habits…So I guess I might ask…am I happy in the future? That would reassure me I think.

Now i am off to see what the pother have said! Please join in and add your link in the comments :)

Top 5 questions of the day (theme announcement)

When thinking about a theme it occurred to me that I'd like to get to know you all a little better, and what better way than a set of five random questions!? 

Here they are for you to ponder (and me too) and I'll post again with answers later today :) 
  1. Given the choice of anyone in the world, whom would you want as a dinner guest?
  2. When did you last sing to yourself? To someone else?
  3. If you were able to live to the age of 90 and retain either the mind or body of a 30-year old for the last 60 years of your life, which would you choose?
  4. If you could wake up tomorrow having gained one quality or ability, what would it be?
  5. If a crystal ball could tell you the truth about yourself, your life, the future or anything else what would you want to know?

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